I know many people talk about a "slippery slope" in all kinds of contexts. For me, the slippery slope went like this:
- I went to Bible to find answers to troubling questions.
- Instead of finding answers, I found contradictions, both internally and with the physical world.
- This led to more troubling questions.
- I concluded that the Bible could not logically be 100% accurate.
OK, most liberal Christians admit to this; and most conservative Christians reject much of the teaching and the historical accounts in the Bible even if they don't admit this. But:
- How are we supposed to figure out which parts are true and which ones aren't?
- If God is supposed to inspire us to know, why do so many groups view different parts of the Bible differently? This leads to completely different worship systems and bitterly divides Christians internally.
- If God is supposed to inspire us to know, why do so many parts of the Bible seem to contradict each other?
- I can't answer these questions in any way that makes sense, so I concluded that maybe God isn't supposed to inspire us to know.
- Well, if God isn't supposed to inspire us, how do we know he inspired the writings to begin with?
- Why did God inspire writings with apparent contradictions? If he is all-powerful, how could he allow this to happen? (Forget natural disasters and evil in the world -- why didn't any original documents survive? Why do the earliest and best writings conflict with each other in ways that totally change the Christian worldview? (e.g., the earliest writings leave out the verses that the Trinity is based on).
- I can't answer these questions in any way that makes sense. Natural disasters and evil might be part of God's plan, but creating such chaos around The Word of God makes no sense and there is no reasonable explanation that I have found. So I concluded that maybe God isn't omnipotent.
- If God isn't omnipotent, and he didn't inspire the Bible, then what, exactly, does the real God have to do with the God in the Bible?
There's nothing that proves any of this conjecture, of course, but the physical evidence (including the words of the Bible itself) support the idea that the Bible is not infallible. And if the Bible is erroneous in places, how can anyone conclude that God is omnipotent and omnibenevolent? How can anyone conclude that God is revealed to us accurately in the Bible? How can anyone conclude that the Real God is the same God of the Bible?
I could have stronger faith, I guess, but that would be ignoring evidence of the physical world. Ignoring evidence of the physical world, in my opinion, is admitting that God is trying to trick us. (Kind of like he did with Job.) I guess that could be the case, but if that is so, then God is mean and unjust and not loving. (Well, that would be the OT God, I guess.)
And whether or not God is real, I have no interest in following an unjust, cruel, unloving God, just to get to heaven. A God that delights in pain and suffering does not have morals that line up with what I believe is right. I don't know how I have determined what I think is right, but delighting in pain and suffering ain't it.
The thing that really makes me mad is that many Christians call me "misled" or "ignorant" or "stupid" for thinking like this. "Read the Bible," they'll say. Uh--yeah, that's what got me into this mess in the first place.
Now I know why the old Catholic church said that laymen weren't allowed to read the Bible -- that only clerics could. Yeah: all it takes is an open mind to realize that the Bible is conflicting and inconsistent. It takes a very intelligent person with a gift for persuasion and rhetoric to resolve those conflicts and inconsistencies in any way that makes sense. (And often these intelligent people use fallicious reasoning and circular arguments to reach their conclusions.)
In this context, how can I be Christian?
And: Are any of these questions and problems even important, or do they attempt to put the concept of God into a box that can never fit? Does spirituality exist outside the realm of reason and logic? If so, how does anyone ever be confident in a spiritual path?
Oy. My brain hurts.